Monday, April 14, 2014

Out on a Dirt Road: April 14, 2014

If I closed my eyes and tried to picture a traumatic experience in a typical missionary day, I would merely need to think back to Tuesday of last week. It all started with the fall, the bicycle kind, the kind where my companion is involve, not me. Don’t worry. It’s more comical than serious but, at the time, it seemed quite dramatic. Ha I’m already laughing just thinking about. Be prepared to have one of those “I guess you had to be there,” type reactions to this story. It’s worth the risk. 

It was raining pretty hard last Tuesday while we’re riding around on our bicycles. We decided to take a short cut that takes us through a dirt road and over a bridge. I was behind my comp as he went down the dirt road. Before I reached the bottom I heard a loud noise and some groaning. I went down the hill and saw my companion sprawled out on the ground with this bike flipped on the other side of the bridge. I just knew it was coming as soon as I saw the dirt road and the speed that he was going towards it. He couldn’t walk or get up for a long time. Finally he mustered up enough motivation to bring himself to his feet and started limping around. He’s a tough guy so just figured he’d walk it off and it’d get better. Eventually, after my nagging he said, “We should probably call someone. This isn’t getting any better.” I agreed. So there we were at the bottom of all these hills with a disabled leg, in the pouring rain, trying to get a hold of someone that could help us. First call, no one answered. Second call, no one answered. And so it went for about forty five minutes. We finally rode/limped our way to a member’s house: wasn’t home. We were stuck again. We repeated the same steps for another member and… yeah they were home actually. We got him all iced and medicated and went on throughout the day with our lessons and what not. 

Time sure seems to be picking up its pace again. I also like the way the weather is behaving lately. Almost like all the elements of space and time are coming together to reward the citizens in Everett, Washington for being so wonderful. There are many things I’ve learned since I’ve been here in downtown Everett. Things like, “Don’t shoot, civilian-” while throwing my hands in the air. It tends to work. Mom that was a joke, I promise. But I have learned other things like patience, disappointment and love. I like the times on my mission where I feel a need to rely on God. Not just a desire, but I feel like I need to submit to him or I won’t survive (spiritually survive, again, Mom, I’m just fine over here.) “Revelation rarely comes without a righteous desire to know and do the will of the Lord.” I just heard that playing from a speaker next to me. I like it. I think I’ll keep it in here. 

I’ll just share one conversation with someone I had the honor of meeting this week, since I've had some requests. I liked this one.

“Hey, what’s your name?”
“Boo, man, what’s your name?”
“Boo? That’s a cool name I’m Elder…”
“Hey you guys don’t mind weed right?”
“What?”
"You don't mind weed.... you know, weeeeeed..." He said very clearly and distinctly to make sure I understood what he was saying as he showed us a hand full of weed and  joint that he was lighting up…
“Oh,” I said, “umm nah it’s good man.” I didn’t know what to say ha.
“K cool, yeah you guys used to come over to my house and just kick it with us. Ya’ll are pretty cool ya know? Come by anytime.”

The conversation went on, but the highlight for me was that you would have expected him to have a cigarette in his hand. Nope, not anymore, it’s evolving here I Everett. Middle of the day has no shame or secrets on the streets. Things are a changing, for better or for worse. I’m just kidding, definitely for worse. I really will miss this place. 

Well, I don’t have much else to say.

Until next time

Cheers


Elder Trent Jay Merrill 

"My Words are their Words": April 7, 2014

It feels like I've come full circle with the conferences this weekend. I remember the first time I watched conference in the mission I felt happy and honored to be on a mission. Home was a little too close and it distracted me. This time I watched conference I felt honored and happy to be on a mission, and home is now closer, but in the other direction. The cycle of the mission is an interesting one. I've had lots of thoughts of it's affect on me and the rest of my life. The last couple days were like pure revelation flowing through me. All the questions I had and hoped to receive answers for were given. I know that the Holy Ghost guided my thoughts to tell me what I needed to know and most importantly, what I needed to do, in order to be in line with the Lord and His path for me. 

I know that this is the true and living church on the earth. I know that Thomas S. Monson is called to be the Lord's authorized steward and spokesman on the earth. I know this is Christ's church and that He guides and directs it through His prophet and servants. I feel it. I felt it strongly as I heard them speak and give their special witness to the world. They know God. I know what they said to me was exactly what God would have me hear. I know that if I didn't receive answers, or direction from this conference, it is not the fault of the Lord's anointed. It would be my own cause. If at any time I find myself saying a certain conference was not very inspiring or uplifting I think about the story of Nephi and his brother and determine which example I'm emulating. Laman and Lemuel received the same counsel and prophecies from their father, Lehi, as Nephi did. Just as we all received the same counsel and prophecies from our Prophet. Yet, the influence and affect this had on Nephi was completely different than it was on Laman and Lemuel. Why is that? Let's look at the formula for allowing the words of a prophet sink in or remain untouched from the heart. 

DILEMMA:
LAMAN & LEMUEL:Behold, we cannot understand the words which our father hath spoken concerning the natural branches of the olive tree, and also concerning the Gentiles.
OUR APPLICATION: I don't see why conference was important. I don't understand. It was kind of worthless and repetitive. I've heard all that before.

NEPHI: And I said unto them: Have ye inquired of the Lord?

LAMAN & LEMUEL And they said unto me: We have not; for the Lord maketh no such thing known unto us.
OUR APPLICATION: I just showed up to conference hoping to get something out of it. I didn't really pray or anything. It should have just hit me if it was good enough. I should have just heard what I needed to hear. 

ANSWER:

NEPHI: Do ye not remember the things which the Lord hath said?—If ye will not harden your hearts, and ask me in faith, believing that ye shall receive, with diligence in keeping my commandments, surely these things shall be made known unto you.

Looking at all the times I showed up to conference with a hardened heart and an unwilling disposition to change, I see that I never received any inspiration. I was bored and tired. I know that since I prepared, and came prayerfully, I received answers through the Holy Ghost. I gain a new insight and perspective on things I didn't have before. I know that when I will act in accordance with what I was instructed, I will be blessed. D&C 82:10. "I the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise."

Anyways.

I feel preachy.

We were able to talk to a lot of people this week. We met one girl who was brought to church by a friend. We've met with her twice now and she accepted the invitation to be baptized. The only catch is that we found out she lives in another ward so... woof. Salvation is salvation. I don't mind. I'm just glad we were able to get her started on the path. It's always a good time. We found another family that said they'd be baptized too. I'll tell you more about them next week when I have time. 

My focus this week has been listening. Learning how to listen intently to everything people say to me. I'm probably not very good at it but it's been interesting what I've been able to learn. When I observe their demeanor and their tone of voice and then listen to the words they have to say, the holy ghost helps me discern what it is they need and what I should say. It works better than when I just try and push my agenda and teachings on them. Those are Elder Bednar's observations, I'm just trying to do what he's taught. I think it works. I'd like to get better at it some day. I've heard all that stuff at the beginning of my mission and I thought, "yeah, yeah, it's good stuff. Heard it before. Now what's something new I can try?" I'm learning that I know the basics. I know the way I'm supposed to do things. I don't need to reinvent the wheel of missionary work. I just need to do what the Lord's anointed have instructed. Preach My Gospel. The Scriptures. There's my answers. I just need to see instead of merely looking. Whatever that means.

Still fighting the good fight,


Elder Trent Jay Merrill 

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Nothing, Really... March 31, 2014

Let me paint a little picture of my reality: When my sleepy head hits the pillow after the long day of work, I close my eyes, smile and fall asleep to the next-door shrieks of yelling and screaming. Peace comes in mysterious ways here in Everett. I've never been happier to be here. It's not as dramatic as you may think. Though, I only speak the truth.

I'm just living my life as the newly called Relief Society President of this sisterhood of missionaries. It's quite the life, if I do say so myself. Which I do. My companion is the first counselor. (Editor note: I think this means he is a District Leader of an area filled with sisters)

This is the time for me to focus on being a missionary. 

To most people that statement would be too obvious. Probably overly simple. To those people I would say, you're right. It is simple and obvious and it has infinite meaning to me if I really think about all it's implications. I am now winding down the time to represent Christ in the authorized and official manner. I don't know if I've lived up to it's potential and privilege. I think about how powerful of a concept that is. I think about how much of a responsibility and honor it is. I think about how I haven't fully lived up to it. I don't know how I could. I just know that I'm going to miss it.

Now is not the time for those kinds of thoughts.

I'm a believer of all things true. I've come to face the double edged sword of change recently. It's a little sharper than usual. My companion has the heart of something that has a kind heart. (Pardon my lack of creativity on that one). He is a rodeo champion and hard worker from Manti, Utah. We ride our bikes around every chance we get and haven't stopped smiling since. I don't know if that last part is true. I haven't smiled a lot, I'm sure. I just like to ride my bicycle. I like to ride my bike. 

I'm still adjusting to this whole "family ward" missionary persona I'm supposed to have.  This week felt like a blur, and not the good kind. Time slowed down just enough for me to miss the past and think of the future. I miss the fast days and slow dreams. I must need to learn something here. Well, I need to learn something everywhere. Just, especially here? Whatever. I love the ward. Their arms are supportive and understanding. They "get it," which I'm grateful for.

We have a wonderful family who is getting baptized pretty soon. We're knocking all sorts of doors and talking with everyone that's within sight and sound. Just the other day we walked back to the street from knocking on a door and I saw a guy with long hair spitting some mad verses out. I smiled and hollered, "Did you write that?"
"Ah yeah, man. I wrote it."
"Could you show us?"
"Yeah, man just a sec."
"What's your name?"
"Solass..."
"C'mon, that's not you're real name..."
"Nah, it's _____"
"Are you famous?"
"I'll be on TV one day, man."
"I'll watch you, let's hear it."
We stood and listened to one of the most impressive lyrical games that I've heard a brotha' spit. It was chilling. Then we invited him to be baptized and we'll meet up with him tomorrow. I just love experiences like that. He'll be in the YSA ward though. Got to hand that fool off. No, I'm not jealous. Why would you even think that. 

The rain is not my friend
The rain is not my friend


Elder Trent Jay Merrill